cupid’s diary

…
Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I’m wasting my time doing things i wanna do?
‘But it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just wanna make you proud
I’m never gonna be good enough for you
I can’t pretend that
I’m alright
And you can’t change me

‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing last forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be perfect
Now it’s too late and
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don’t care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I’m never gonna be good enough for you
can’t stand another fight
And nothing’s alright

Nothing’s gonna change the that you said
Nothing’s gonna make this right again
Please don’t turn your back
I can’t believe it’s hard
Just to talk to you
‘Cuz you don’t understand
…

…
kau begitu sempurna
di mataku kau begitu indah
kau membuat diriku
akan selalu memujamu

di setiap langkahku
ku kan selalu memikirkan dirimu
tak bisa ku bayangkan
hidupku tanpa cintamu

janganlah kau tinggalkan diriku
takkan mampu menghadapi semua
hanya bersamamu ku akan bisa

kau adalah darahku
kau adalah jantungku
kau adalah hidupku
lengkapi diriku
oh sayangku kau begitu
SEMPURNA

kau genggam tanganku
saat diriku lemah dan terjatuh
kau bisikkan kata
dan hapus semua sesalku
…

…
ku berjalan terus tanpa henti
dan dia pun kini telah pergi
ku berdoa di tengah indahnya dunia
ku berdoa untuk dia yang ku rindukan

would it be nice to hold you
would it be nice to take you home
would it be nice to kiss you

memohon untuk tetap tinggal
dan jangan engkau pergi lagi
berselimut di tengah dingin dunia
berselimut dengan dia yang ku rindukan

jangan pernah lupakan aku
jangan hilangkan diriku
jangan pernah lupakan aku
jangan hilangkan diriku
jangan pernah lupakan aku
jangan pergi dari aku
…

..
i carry your heart with me(i carry it in my heart)
i am never without it
(anywhere i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling)
i fear no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet)
i want no world
(for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)
..

-pipih-

.. To feel lost its a God’s give to be more appreciate love and life, and everything happened for a reasons, even the universe has a plan and we’re in it, it is part of living and sometimes we have to feel one stranger pain in life, coz it will make you more stronger !

August

~ Loves to jokes
~ Attractive
~ Suave and caring
~ Brave and fearless
~ Firm and has leadeship qualities
~ Knows how to console others
~ Too generous and egoistic (sure do)
~ Takes high pride of oneself
~ Thirsty for praises
~ Extraordinary spirit
~ Easly angered
~ Angry when provoked (aren’t we all ???)
~ Easly jealous (in what way ??)
~ Observant
~ Careful and cautious
~ Thinks quickly
~ Independent thoughts
~ Loves to lead and to be led
~ Loves dream
~ Talented in the arts, music and defense (arts maybe, but defense ??? du’h)
~ Sensitive but not petty
~ Poor resistance against illnesses
~ Learn to relax
~ Hasty and rushy
~ Romantic
~ Loving and caring
~ Loves to make friends

“To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering one must not love. But then one suffers from not loving. Therefore to love is to suffer, not to love is to suffer. To suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love. To be happy then is to suffer. But suffering makes one unhappy. Therefore, to be unhappy one must love, or love to suffer, or suffer from too much happiness. I hope you’re getting this down.”

Leo or Simha (July 23 - August 21)

Leo is the fifth zodiac sign and is denoted by Lion. The creative and romantic Lion rules the Zodiac’s house of pleasure. The playful Lion loves fun and is a supremely social animal. People born under this sign are marked by certain good qualities making them creative, generous, warmhearted, enthusiastic, loving, broad-minded, and faithful. Leos have a powerful presence and staying power that insures them success in their conquests. They are called the true Kings of the zodiac. They have powerful intelligence and are of a broad philosophical, sometimes religious, turn of mind. Those who are devout may become very obstinate in upholding traditional beliefs and will cling tenaciously, but with complete sincerity, to practices and doctrines which liberal thinkers regard as absurdly out-of-date.

The Leo usually puts up a brave fight to overcome without calling upon others for help. On giving up, Leo person is usually very sick though he recovers rapidly from illness. Leo rules the heart, aorta, vena cava, dorsal region of the spine, and the spinal cord. Leos tend to be at managerial level since they are ambitious by nature and also because they dislike manual labor. They can good as politicians, and chairman or director in business. They are excellent organizers often laying the groundwork for new projects. Leo women make exceptionally good welfare workers. Leo requires a lover who can keep up with them and certainly one who can match wits. Leo has very high expectations. The ideal Leo soul mates are Aquarians who understand the pleasure principle and work hard to keep their mate satisfied.

5-3 Leo/Gemini

The combination of your Sun and Moon signs suggests that you are a person possessed with both action and ideas. This combination blends the vitality, personal warmth, generosity, authoritativeness of Leo, with the intelligence, cleverness, flexibility and adaptability of Gemini. Your personality is perpetually searching for ways to impress others via these action or achievements, and, especially by matters of the mind, or your ideas. Your mind is facile and intuitive, rather than profound or over serious. Your ability to make good impressions on people serves you well in your public life and in dealing with those within your sphere of influence. Your ideas, while not based on deep philosophy, are usually plausible, and always delivered with a manner of expression that is persuasive. You like to work with your mind, and you’re rarely found working very hard for a living. You believe in easy money and seem to know how to get it without exerting great amounts of physical energy. Mentally, you would never be called lazy. At times you can become so mentally active that you would turn into a bundle of nerves. You never really stop trying to impress others with what you know, and you are a very interesting conversationalist. You are also very social and love to entertain, especially when your guests are interesting people who stimulate you mentally. Your glib analyses and sharp observations make you a favorite with such groups.

Begini ceritanya ..

Batam 3 hari
Konfrensi Nasional Psikoterapi dan skizofrenia
Seru, rame, seneng ketemuan temen-temen yang anaknya temen-temen bokap :p (ngerti gak?). Disini sih gak kemana2 cuma diplanet holiday ajah ma ikutin acara
Singapore 7 hari
Sekali ini, ke sini nyobain lewat Batam, ternyata asik juga naek Fery Penguin dan terbukti lebih ngirit ampe 1 juta (kalo bolak balik). Anyway disini nginep di Mbak Adhe .. Mama papa pada jalan2, aku sempet hunting buku dan Alhamdulillah dapet 4 :). Gak tau yah, gak bosen aja kalo ke sini kali karena keteraturannya yg bikin nyaman dan ada waroeng haji nasir yang ternyata ngangenin jg hihihihi. Sempet juga ke NUS nanyain course nya occupational medicine Anyway pulangnya pake Valuair aja yang murmer. Sampe Jakarta siangnya langsung ujian Oiaaaaaaaaaa diajarin yoga basic ama mbak adhe (eduuun) ternyata gerakan begitu doang bisa bikin keringet ngucur dan badan pada pegel :p tapi aku juga tetep latian kok dirumah dah beli matras mbak
Bandung 4 hari
Setelah dari Sing, minggu depannya ke Bandung, sekalian bersantai stres juga ngerjain 2 tugas dan 2 tugas ujian dalam waktu 4 hari .. untung dibantu Aa tersayang yang rela mengedit tengah malem :p Anyway, di sini sih biasa aja di rumah sodara dan gak gitu banyak cerita .. jalan2 aja nikmatin kesempatan santai